Sentimental

I need home.
You need it? Just come home
Where?
Here. This is yours. 

You can steer yourself in any direction you choose, because you trust him. But when you know he's lying to you, what should you do?

"sembuhkan luka dengan memaafkan" someone told me.

Merasa kurang, merasa tidak dibutuhkan, merasa akan salah setiap mengambil apa yang diputuskan. Apa pernah merasa seperti itu? Mungkin rasa tersebut yang paling sering muncul dalam diri saya belakangan ini. 

I just hope I will understand better someday.

This way, we get to learn something new every week from each of us

Saya pernah menyinggung tentang ini 
"…aku ingin menikahi seorang laki-laki beserta pemikirannya, yang mengerti tentang cita-cita dan mimpi-mimpiku. mimpi-mimpi, yang aku sendiri tidak yakin dapat mewujudkannya…"

Saya hanya ingin menemuinya, yang entah siapa.  

And I'm thanking you for being there for me...

Sunny in the earlier, but gloomy in the end. Forecast for today when some people need the truth to face their activities.

Tick tock tick tock... been 2 hours, I only sat in this 1x1 meter room to copying and watched some movie trailer.

Suddenly I got an online message from the operator. He told me it's raining outside.

Bingo! I didn't bring any mantrol or jacket to back home.

Time goes by, it takes a long time, I try to call his phone, only for hearing his voice.
------ 082137****** ------ "hello"
*on conversation*
...2 minutes later, "aku kesana ya."

*off* 

...1 hour later, he comes with wearing long sleeves.
 
..."This, go home now. It's getting dark outside." 
...He gave me a jacket to back home. 

Been 3 hours.
I don't know what it will be... but indeed your presence comforts me.

And then, I just stare at him, realizing how happy it makes me just... looking at him. 
With the fact that he's beside me.

Terima Kasih....
 

Silence

So I've been told... 
Silence is gold...
Silence might be gold, but speaking up is diamond. 
I know it’s hard to speak up for your self sometimes.
The people who ignore you now will somehow need you later.


The question now is, "Was it worth it?"
I don't know... Silence is a girl's loudest cry.

Bulan Tersenyum

Ada kalanya kita berjalan pelan. Merasakan apa yang dia, mereka, dan kamu rasakan. Kata-kata bisa menguatkan, sekaligus melemahkan. Maka gunakan yang terbaik dan rasakan apa yang membuat kita bisa tersenyum manis. Bulan-bulan yang dipenuhi tekanan dan harapan. Dunia yang dijalani seperti melempar senyum pada kita, jangan cepat menyerah. Suka sekali melihat fenomena dimana butiran hujan menghantam bagian kaca mobil atau jendela. Saat diperhatikan dengan seksama, butiran hujan adalah air yang tadinya keras menyatu, ketika jatuh bersentuhan dengan kaca, ia akan melerai terpisah.

Let me be the woman you fall for a little bit more every single day. Let me be the woman you can show your true colors to. Let me be the woman you can tell your dreams and deepest secrets. The one that makes you a true man.