Sunday 6 January 2013

Essayists

Just remember, know the rules before you break them.
Terkadang kita melupakan hal-hal kecil, bahkan mengabaikannya.
Seperti bersyukur, menyapa, berterima kasih, meminta maaf, memaafkan, dan bahkan mengingat.

How it feels? When you can check your "recent updates" routinely, but you can't say hello by text-message, or say hi via email to your lovely one if you don't have credits (pulsa) to texting?

Remember every single thing, not the everything, but not the whole thing too, sometime when the moment began, we try harder to know apa yang sedang dia lakukan, dia sudah makan belum, dia lagi dimana dan sama siapa. 
Tapi setelah waktu berlalu, terkadang kita melupakan itu. 

To writing long emails or text-message or waiting for a call and sipping tea while waiting for the reply to come. So classy, but it always waited.  Ironically it is not, because you feel like running out of time.

I had my own doubts and surely you had yours. I was questioning a lot of things. Being away from you helped me find the answers. 

I miss you.
Still. No text message from you at all. 

Do you still call out my name when you are asleep, just like the old times? Because I still did. I long for you and maybe hearing some abridged greetings from you over the phone would be more enough. 

"Man 1: We accept the love we think we deserve. Man 2: Can we make them know that they deserve more? Man 1: We can try."

All I have to do is open my ears to the truth. The happiness is real.

If I were to lose you today, am I ready?
If you were to lose me  today, are you ready?