She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart

 Look at the lyrics.  

This is only one message of the many messages when we decide to commit. 
Just how we are reminded. Just how we are called into question. Just how we trust each other. Just how we look after each other for our hearts.

 
She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've git a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don't know we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Then, Who else you're going to go with? What special moment you want to repeat? Will you hold my hand and fly with me? I've always dreamed about taking back the time yet I never really sure where I want to be. Sometimes we have to flash back, checking around the time when we meet each other.

Surat yang Tak Pernah Tersampaikan

"Kali ini kusadari
Aku telah jatuh cinta
Dari hati terdalam
Sungguh aku cinta padamu"

Sejuta makna dari lirik ini. Seperti halnya ungkapan yang tak pernah terucapkan tetap dinantikan untuk didengarkan. Seperti ketika 4 bulan menunggu, tanpa ada jawaban. Seperti ketika menaruh rasa pada sisi lain menjadi halangan. 4 bulan masa dimana semuanya berpikir negatif terhadapku, yang dihadapanmu hanya biasa-biasa saja. Dan sekalinya marah menguasai, keluarlah kata 4 bulan menunggu. Pernah kah sekalinya aku di dengar? Pengorbanan untuk rasa.

Tak ada kata yang bisa terucap ketika berhadapan dengannya. Karena terlalu banyak kata yang ingin tersampaikan. Terungkap seperti kata di setiap bait lagu ini. 

Terima kasih untuk cinta itu

Terima kasih untuk pundak itu. Yang sedianya meminjamkannya hingga aku tertidur pulas diperjalanan kembali pulang

Terima kasih untuk usaha itu, yang membuatku melupakan sejenak peluh dunia ketika semua bertanya

Terima kasih untuk semua perlakuan itu, hingga meyakinkan ku berdiri di kota itu

Terima kasih untuk rasa yang tak pernah ada habisnya itu

Terima kasih untuk rindu itu

Dan terima kasih untuk rasa itu

Colors of the wind

I lost my direction for a while. then I was just to distracted by this song. This song originally sang by Vanessa Williams from Pocahontas. Pay attention at the lyrics! It shows you not to be arrogant, to care with your surroundings and most importantly to show you how precious the earth is, love it don't cut it down. I'm not overreacting here, but this song really clicks something in me. 

How high does a sycamore grow?
If you cut it down then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper skinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
We need to paint with all the colours of the wind

You can paint with all the colours of the wind

Friends

Today, I am very grateful for what God has given to me. A warm family, my future husband who loves me, and friends are always there for me.  

If known, sometime I go through this is the heaviest day of my life. "Sadness and happy" always there for me, it can be said as a complementary.

When quiet, as usual. Today I felt something different. I got many hugs today. Too many sad and smile today. Thank you, thank you all.

I wonder if they would care?

I feel like an idiot

I'm getting all down on myself and I decide to read my Holy Book

And then He decides to smack me in the face

I'm not in jail

I'm not being stoned

I'm not being rejected

I'm just an idiot

As a stupidity

Stupid me

I hate something about myself

I hate it, and It really makes me feel terrible

I never have

I've never been put in a situation that I had to get out of

I never have had to say no

I've never had the opportunity to say yes

All I could say

Even if for leave away

Even it’s for a while

Thank you for listening me threw away

My March, literally everything..

Hmm, i don't really know how to start this thingy. It is just like you stand in the HUGE stone, then  gonna yell out about something because remember for something, and it called as FATE.

One thing reminds me a lot.  My math teacher said, "vectors have both direction & magnitude" while reviewing something. All I could see was just another fate.

While struggling with thousand of new perspective, i was expecting about .... life. And why we have to chin up even we fall for a hundreds time???
Before you try to pretend, you should realize for some reasons like this:

1. We can't change the way we've acted in the past, that shouldn't have an affect on the way we act now 
2. What done is done. Dwelling on the past is not going to change things any more than looking at a clock will make it move faster.
3. It is a prayer that humbles you,teaches you, &causes your love for God & your spouse/potential spouse to override your own selfish desires
4. It's all about knowing and believing. For last. It's taking back the way... "Belong to someone"... for back to the God. and it called as Love.