Have Heart

I don't even know what the following words are going to be few of the hardest ones to write. Nevertheless, writing would be the best medium for me to express how I feel, for what I would like to say, and the things I’d like to convey. I wanted to sing for you but that's not my right to singing in front of you.

I'm not like a woman you would expect, completely. Who could knit a sweater for you, make crafts for you, and I hope you can accept this and okay with this. I'm not entirely an independent woman who can stand alone. Somehow I feel something that was missing. Ya... your attention, your care and your affection.. 

We have been together for a few hundred day, rig? It feels so fast until I feel like I have never even known you before. I remember when you said you never promised me about forever, for the future is full of uncertainties, and I told you we can never know who our soulmate is. But… I also remember when you promised me you would stay by my side no matter how badly things might get, and you agreed when I told you the only thing to figure out if we are soulmate for each other or not would be to stay together until we depart. Because.. We believe about true love.

In the past year I have had huge transitions in my life and lost what I would consider my "group" of friends that I spent the majority of my time with. Because some words that you said to me.. I have tried to assess whether it's growing up. I've changed.

But now... Could you feel it? Ask your heart for what you have done and what have you told me? We're all so busy and wrapped up in our own things, but when does it ever just settle down? Do I get those friends back? Will I gain new ones? What am I doing wrong and how can I fix it to make it better?

For wanting to be responsible for my feelings, especially my happiness.

Thank you.

For being the person who always reminds me to protect my dreams, and pursue them. For being the person who contains me. For wanting to stick with me no matter how irritating I have always been.Thanks for being that way..

I love you. I hope I have made you happy. :)